If you really knew me, you would know that I’m in love with one of my best friends and he doesn’t know it.If you really knew me, you would know that I’m stuck in between two social cliques.

If you really knew me, you would know that I feel as if I am living in my sister’s shadow. If you really knew me, you would know that I have a fear that my family would die and it would be my fault. If you really knew me, you would know that that I fear death.

If you really knew me, you would know that something is wrong with me on the inside, that I’m sick in ways I can’t even talk to my parents about. If you really knew me, you would know that I need help. If you really knew me, you sould know that I am consumed with my past sin and as much as I try to let go I can’t.

If you really knew me, you would know I have no self confidence. If you really knew me you would know that I think that I think my friends don’t really like me.

If you really knew me… you would know I’m fighting with myself for my life.