You disgust me, yet I want to love you. I see your pain, and yet I know you are the cause of it all. Please don’t give me that look. Just stop!

Why? Why do you do this to me? Just when I think it is OK, I see your face. You stare at me like I did something wrong. I know it is my fault, but please I can’t take it anymore. Don’t keep doing this.

For one day, just one day, couldn’t you be somewhere else? You have to be here, in the same place everyday. When I am driving I see you in my rear view mirror, you follow me everywhere. When I am walking down the street and glance at a store front window, I see you there in the reflection, still following me. Why won’t you leave me alone?

If I could find one place where you won’t be, I would go there and stay. I keep hoping that a place like that exists, I just pray. Sometimes I close my eyes and feel you have gone away, only to open them and realize I have been betrayed.