I’m not gonna fuck this up.

Really I’m not. I’ve learned some things since last time, and I’ve changed so much.

Still old demons never really go away, I don’t think they’re supposed to. The difference is just that each time we fight to stop them, they get easier to deal with. And you help. You really, really help.

I’ve always said I’m not scared of change, I’ve always embraced it, ready and waiting. Maybe before I wasn’t scared because I wasn’t attached to anything, not really.

I loved change because it kept me from attachment. But now I’m attached and I love you too much to let go. How can one person have that ability, to change everything I once knew to be true? Why am I not more scared?

How are YOU not scared? You let me walk in and make your life bearable again, make you happy again, and you let me fall for you because you needed someone like me to hold you up. I needed someone to hold up again. We hold each other up I think.

That scares me a little. I don’t get how it doesn’t scare you.