I’m in class
Trudging the books
Giving my teachers funny looks
Cause every word that they say
I hear your name instead.

I sit and ponder in chemistry
What would happen if I add you to me
Would it be a positive reaction
Or would we explode
Splatter on the walls and floor
In atomic overload
Because I deserve it
To be alone and catastrophic
You deserve better
-cause you’re better.

You make every mile
Just another flutter in my heart
I swear I got serious AFIB
From being so far apart
And I can’t sleep a wink
Knowing what you must think
And now we’re not speaking
And the silence speaks louder than ever.

I’m as crooked as those whom I detest
Can’t put my twisted paranoia to rest
Trust and breathe without hesitation
Too thick with fear and self-preservation
I’ve got no excuse
But a pathetic riddled past
I’m a horrible friend
And I act like a…donkey.

I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I want you to be happy
I wish we were happy
You deserve better
Cause you’re better
Than this.