It was in the field of psychology that I found my greatest passion. While I had my trepidations about Freud and his many theories, I was fascinated by his understanding of the core human motive as being one of suppression of a deep baser instinct that, in times of great stress, bubbles fourth into the higher brain thus creating the many psychoses we recognize today. I became extremely interested in the field of trauma research and observed that often those who undergo intense stress will enter into a state of near constant hyper arousal of a kind often witnessed in prey-animals. It was clear to me that in the aftermath of a traumatic event the rationalizations of the higher human mind is repressed by the animal drive for survival. Would it not be possible then to create the opposite effect? What kind of stimulus could be applied that would silence the everyday impact of the animal mind, leaving the intellectual human mind free? This was the goal of my experimentation and why I sought out that accursed book.